InsaneJournal

Thursday November 27, 2008


[OOC: Your characters may or may not read the strikes, up to you.]

Dear Hope,

I know that we haven’t known each other for very long and things have always been hectic. Between and around us. To say that I never thought that I’d be where I am would a be a lie. At a deeper level I knew I would be in a place like this, if not dead. My therapist says that I need to write letters to all my friends and family that I affected by my recent actions. To explain and apologize for them. I had to wait though, till I was actually ready to apologize. Now I am.

What you probably heard about me is true. I did grow up controlling Rorie. I did hurt him physically, emotionally, mentally, and sexually. I consciously did this while at school and I was going to therapy for it when we were together for that short time. Well to say that I was going to therapy, I mean to say I went and sat there staring at the wall. I was also not the most faithful boyfriend. I was with someone else, but to keep them safe from the swift vengence of your hand, they will remain anonymous. To apologize for juse the one time wouldn’t be enough. I like to still think of you as a friend and if you’d rather I not, okay.

I know that since I got to that school, I’ve been nothing but a pain. Getting into trouble, causing trouble, and giving you more work that you probably needed or wanted. I’m going to be here a while and when I get out, I want to be someone that you will be able to trust and call friend again. If you don’t feel like you can then I will understand.

For now though. I hope that this explains some things. It’s still vague and you’ll probably be getting more letters, but for right now, this will be it. I hope you’re well, I hope that things are better than when I was there.

- Finn





Dear Declan,

I’m not

I’m sorry

Thank you for being my friend when I didn’t deserve one. When you knew everything I did and didn’t make me feel like a freak. Like I was this evil scum that didn’t deserve your time. You have no idea how much you’ve done for me by simply doing that alone. I’m sorry for the worry I’ve put you through and everything you did that I didn’t notice.

You are one of my closest friends and I’m proud to have you by my side. When I am better, I won’t be able to drink for a while, but maybe we could have some Irish Cream hot chocolate, without the alcohol. Keely and Garret and Rorie are so lucky to have you. I hope they realize what they have.

Erin Go Braugh,

Finn





Dear Fox,

My fellow delinquent. I’m not real sure what to put. We’re both not the flowery type. Well, my first few letters to other people made that a lie. To you though. I’ll keep it short and sweet.

I did try to kill myself, twice.

I did try to kill my best friend.

I do like butterscotch schnapps.

I did hurt my brother in every conceivable way.

You’re not the evil bad guy at school. I am. Just remember that despite what everyone said or says, you were never the bad guy. You are the good guy. The anti-hero trying to find that girl that’ll take you as is. Bullshit, parental hang ups, all of it. She’s out there.

I’m just sorry that I won’t be the guy that’ll have your back through out everything. If I was, I wouldn’t be here now. My shit got the best of me. Don’t let yours do the same. You have a chance to start over once March comes. Don’t pass it up.

- Finn